I was surrounded by 360 degree mirrors. As you might imagine, this can be a difficult situation for a person working through body image issues such as myself.
I took an unintentional break from my weekly yoga class. A trip to California and a huge deadline at work kept me away. As I unrolled my mat for the first time in about a month there they were – 360 degrees of floor to ceiling mirrors. But, today was different.
I had an ah-ha moment about half way through class. I realized that my belly was muffin topping over my yoga pants, but I didn’t care. I didn’t break the pose and scramble to “fix myself” as I usually do. I just smiled and concentrated on the instructors voice. Instead of picking my body apart in those mirrors, I looked at myself in the eye. I typically have to force my inner critic to be quiet, but today I just didn’t care. I didn’t care if my belly was hanging over my pants. I didn’t care if my hips looked wide in chair pose. I didn’t wonder if the people around me were judging me. I just didn’t care. I was there to do yoga.
It was one of the most intense yoga classes of my life. I felt my heart open and my body release. I was at peace.