As you may have noticed, things have been a bit quiet on the blog front. It’s been a minute since I posted anything (okay more like 3 months). Why? Well, to be honest I quite abruptly lost my desire to write. I’ve still been creating. I post sketches on instagram daily and I’ve been working hard on getting an Etsy shop off the ground, but I’ve let this blog lay dormant.
So, why? Why did I loose my desire to write?
Three months ago I decided to go more public with this blog. I linked to it in my social media accounts. Of course some family members, friends, and even co-workers found it. I, in turn, freaked out.
This blog has been my free space to write whatever I want without worrying about any “real world” judgement or controversy. When I shared it more publicly that anonymity disappeared, and I realized I was no longer comfortable writing freely. Then another truth sunk in; if I can’t write freely and authentically then I don’t want to write at all.
I quickly realized what was going on and I removed all links to the blog. And then I let it sit here. For months. Hoping they would all go away.
Sometimes there are parts of us that we’re not yet ready to share with the world. That we only share with a few trusted people (or anonymously on the internet – wink wink). Parts of us that we’re still developing. And that’s okay.